Category Archives: Emology

Emology

Should I keep on going or should I let go?

The art of letting go. How can you let go if you cannot. It’s really hard to let go of someone who has been etched into your heart and is mentally and emotionally attached to you. Letting go requires a lot of horse power, a lot of electricity, a lot of emotional strength. It’s not that easy to let go if it’s true. If it’s real. If it’s from the heart.

You can easily erase it. We’re mere humans and we’re not hard drives that you can easily reformat and reboot without tiny bits of data left. Being a human is really hard. Being a robot is easier. How I wish I can be a robot someday. I really want to be a robot.

I can’t sleep easily and I can’t stop thinking of her. She’s over me but I’m not over her. Doing other time consuming stuff and activities won’t help. It really doesn’t help me. I’ve been going to any places, but still, I can’t get over her. I had sex with a lot of different girls, but I still can’t get over her. She’s always on my mind, every time I wake up and I close my eyes, she’s everywhere I go, she’s all I know. Though she’s so far away. It just keeps getting stronger every day. And even now she’s gone. I’m still holding on

Oh well, emo me! Hahaha!

Emology

Wow! Look at me! Am I that crazy?

I realize just now that I have a DID! Yep, I have a dissociative identity disorder! I think I’m crazy! I’ve been writing about love and heartaches over the past few months. Wow, that’s not me! Maybe somebody hacked into my blog and wrote it. It’s not me It’s not me!

But, hey it’s me. I have DID you know? Hahaha! I’m crazy. I’m damn crazy. I love her. I’m so in love with her. Love makes you crazy. That’s why there are song that says it’s crazy to be in love and I love you like crazy. There are a lot of crazy love songs, and people who are falling in love are crazy!

Just like me. I’m crazy right now! Extremely crazy! I’m crazy for you Jessica! I want you back! You know who you are!

Emology

When you can say nothing at all…

It was 8:00 o’clock in the evening and she stairs at me. She looks into my eyes and trying to say something. I didn’t get it. I’m so naive, I don’t know what that stair means. I’m really stupid and I didn’t notice that it pertains something. I just found out that she loves me after 3 months. I found out about it at the time that she no longer loves and she’s with someone already.

I should be more keen if someone stairs at me like that. Damn me, I’m so stupid. I’m an idiot. How can I say now that I love her. I don’t know. I don’t care. Oh, I care… A bit. That’s why I’m blogging about this now. Geez. Oh geez. I don’t know what to say. Where to start. What will happen if I started saying that I love her.

Should I tell her? Should I keep this to myself and wait until me life ends? Should I bury this into oblivion? I don’t know. I’m crazy for her. I’m so crazy for her. I love her and I don’t know what to do. I want her to be mine, but somebody owns her already. I think I should just keep quite and watch over her and make sure that she’s happy. That’s all that I can do for now. Nothing else, because I’m such a wimp.

I’m a wimp I’m a wimp I’m a wimp!

Emology

Jessica, May, and Grace

Jessica, May, and Grace are my 3 high school crushes. And the 3 of them are my classmates. The 3 of them are born in May! The 3 of them are born on the same day, May 9, 1985! I just wanna say Happy Birthday to Jessica, May and Grace! Happy Birthday girls! Looking forward to kiss the 3 of you again.

My first kiss was with Jessica when I was in first year high school. It was my very first kiss and I can’t forget how sweet it was. Jessica became my girl friend for a week. We’ve been kissing day and night, before going to school and before going home after school. We broke up after 1 week, because she caught me kissing May. Yep, I’m so stupid, I kiss my other crush while we were together.

So now, May and I are together. May was my second kiss. She’s my girlfriend for 2 weeks. Yep, we only lasted for 2 weeks. She’s really pretty and I really like her. She looks like Odette Yustman and Megan Fox. She’s so hot and I hope I can marry her someday. But good things never last long. We broke up after 2 weeks because she caught my kissing Grace.

Damn, I’m so evil. I wasn’t contented to stick to one. I’ve been kissing a lot of girls left and right, that’s why it was my fault the our relationship ended. After a few days, Grace and I are together. She lasted for a month. She’s my girlfriend for 1 month and we did a lot of things together. She’s prettier than May. She looks like Alessandra Ambrosio of Victoria’s Secret.

We did a lot of crazy and stupid things together and she was the one who took my… you know what I mean. We kissed a lot and did a lot of nasty things at home and at school. We did it inside the library, the principal’s office, and at the back of our classroom. We were so in love and we can’t think of anything else, but us.

But that didn’t last so long and it ended. Because she died after a month.

It’s a tragic sad story, but it’s true. Goodbye Grace. I love you.

Emology

I heard that you’re settled down…

I heard that you’re settled down, That you found a girl and you’re married now. I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I didn’t give to you. Old friend, why are you so shy?
It ain’t like you to hold back or hide from the lie. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.

I hoped you’d see my face & that you’d be reminded, That for me, it isn’t over. Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you two. Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said “Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead” Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah….

You’d know how the time flies. Only yesterday was the time of our lives. We were born and raised in a summery haze. Bound by the surprise of our glory days. I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited, But I couldn’t stay away, I couldn’t fight it.

I hoped you’d see my face & that you’d be reminded, That for me, it isn’t over yet.
Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you two.
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remember you said: “Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”. Nothing compares, no worries or cares.

Regret’s and mistakes they’re memories made. Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste? Nevermind, I’ll find someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you two.
Don’t forget me, I beg, I remembered you said: “Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead”

Oh well, I’m suffering from LSS again. Hehe.